It seems like one of the scariest/hardest/emotionally straining things to do… start a new chapter.
Recently I’ve had a lot of taxing events happen. I received my acceptance letter from NC State University {Throws confetti and jumps on bed} where I will be studying meteorology in the Spring, I’ve also come to the realization that I have to say good-bye to my best friend that I have been in school with since second grade, finals season is upon us {Cue the tears and blood made of coffee}, and I have been dealing with a few personal dilemmas which i’ll be writing a blog about later. In all honesty its been a roller coaster of emotions and I am scared to turn the page in my story because I don’t know what lies on the back side of this chapter of my life.
New beginnings are the hardest thing we have to face, whether its moving to a new school, state or changing jobs it’s all terrifying. But do those emotions have to be negative? Do we let our fears control our emotions, cocoon ourselves in a stagnant life or do we break the mold and pursue even our wildest dreams? Lately that has been my internal struggle… So much of me wants to soar, fly, run with the wind and never look back while the other half wants to hide in my room, drink coffee, watch Netflix and live the routine that I know and pretend that I’m not leaving the University of South Carolina.
The other night I cried {HARD} and I told myself that everything was going to be okay, that this was just a piece of growing up, and that I know I can’t stay in college for ever. I kept telling myself that change is good, that I’ll grow, that I’ll be okay, that THIS is for the best! Thats when it all clicked and I felt someone taping me on the shoulder telling me that I’m not alone, that this change is bigger that I can even imagine and that it is all apart of the plan, and thats when I listened to God, looked up bible verses about change and my heart began to rest because I knew he was going to be apart of every step of this transition.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
New beginnings and chapters are terrifying but what I am realizing is that it is all about what YOU make of it. God has a plan for you and we just have to follow him and his word. New beginnings are simply magical, it’s a time to grow, change, and metamorphosize into the beautiful human God created you to be. He’s holding your hand and if your going through a giant change right now just know I’m right there holding your hand too. You are strong, you are courageous, and you are going to survive in this new place with new people. Now get ready to grow, and don’t you dare hold yourself back from all of your potential because YOU can change the world all because you took a leap of faith and ran with your new magical beginning.
Much Love,
Grace Madeline Dirig